The military has this window of time while you are waiting on the military, waiting for an assignment. At some points in your career there are things you can do to help direct where you go. At other points, you are sitting and waiting on the military to make its move. You fill out the dream sheet or you do the networking and then you wait and try not to dream.
It is hard not to dream.
You have a place you want to go next and as you wait and wonder what is to come you try not to dream about where you are going to go. But it is really hard to stop yourself from thinking what it would to like to go here or there.
It is hard not to think about what friends you might connect with at your new assignment to be.
It is hard not to think about what it might be like a year from now when you are at your new location.
You are waiting to hear where you will go and how your life will be changed. And at the same time you are trying to stay present in the moments of life. Sometimes you don’t like where you are stationed and are dreaming of finding something new. Other assignments you wish this could be your forever home, but just not right now. You find your place, your people and you don’t want to leave.
But you came to this assignment and know that your time is limited and will be leaving to go on some new adventure a few years down the road and now that time is quickly approaching. And it is hard not to dream.
I don’t want to move
This is the first assignment where I have really not wanted to leave. I loved both of my previous assignments, but both of those assignments connected me with a lot of military friends who were either already gone or about to leave. And even though I have had a few friends leave from here on to new adventures, I still have a good core group left behind.
We are native Californians so being close to family has had many advantages. And that was the main reason that I wanted to come back to California. But our family is still hours away and some weekends the drive home seems so long. So being “home” has its advantages and disadvantages.
Here we have found a home. We have made friends and built a community around us that is there when we need them. And as I once told my husband, about a year after we moved. I have never had friends like this. I never had people who knew so much of my good and my bad and still loved me. And I never have had people who knew so many intimate details of my life and when I shared the hard days they stood there with arms wide open saying me too.
Waiting on the military
So maybe I’m trying to dream about what is coming to make what I’m leaving behind not so bad. But dreams are not reality and maybe they will help me as I cope and get excited about the next adventure. But they won’t stop the tears that will come.
So maybe I shouldn’t stop myself from dreaming of what is to come. I know the military could come and pull the rug right out of my dreams and it will be time to start planning new dreams. But maybe that is one way my mind copes with saying goodbye. Dreaming of a new future. New friends and new beginnings. So, dream away. Dream of new adventures yet to come.