It is time for Five Minute Friday. Starting the weekend a little early with some fun. Tonight’s word is breathe. Rules are simple write for five minutes on the word breathe. So join in on the fun at Kate’s site. This week she featured Lisa Jo Baker who originally started Five Minute Friday and was the reason I started this blog.
When I got home from Afghanistan I let out a big sigh of relief. I could finally breathe. I was home again, but really I wasn’t.
My husband had moved our house and himself off to a new assignment and I came home to a few towels and handful of clothes. I was home, but not home. And the world that I came back to was nothing like the one I left. I went from being totally unconnected to being plugged in. There were advertisements, billboards, places and things to do.
I was planning to meet up with a friend and to get to her house I had to cross an open field. You would think it wasn’t a big deal, but open fields in Afghanistan often meant that there was the potential for landmines. I could see foot prints in the dirt, I knew I was in a safe place, but try as I might I could not walk across the open field. So instead I took the long way around. The safe way.
Deploy really changes you, I was home, but changed. I was safe, but different. I never realized how much going to a war zone could quickly creep back into everyday life. At first it was feeling like there was always something missing since my 9mm and M4 were no longer by my side. But memories kept popping up every now and then. Making it harder to be home.
Years later the memories seemed to have faded, but I’m sure there is more to it than what it seems. Hopefully in time I will soon find a way to breathe.
Well another memory, it wasn’t really what I was planning when I started, but I guess that is the fun with Five Minute Friday you never really know what you are going to get.