Often times as a Mom you can feel small and insignificant. Maybe you think that the things you do and the choices you make really do not matter. Maybe you wonder if you are really doing a good enough job. You doubt your ability to parent the blessing God has given you.
Something Small So Big
I didn’t know something so small could turn my life upside down and cause such dramatic changes. I know I wasn’t prepared for the hard work that motherhood requires. The long nights, the marathon feedings, the feeling of being lost and wishing you just knew what to do. Even as I write this I have a hard time remembering past stages. It all goes by so fast and the infant you brought home is growing and changing right in front of you.
You don’t have time to reflect or reminisce on the early days, weeks and months and are just caught up in the changes of every day as life passes on.
For me the road to motherhood was not what I expected. I definitely did not think I was doing a very good job. My mom came to visit when my son was almost 2 months old. She kept saying he was so lucky to have me as a Mom and all I could think was why.
What made me so special?
What was I doing that someone else couldn’t do?
At the time I was so deep in the every day that I could not see the love I was pouring into my baby and the intermittent smiles that I felt like he gave everyone were my only reward.
But my mom was looking from the outside and could see the love pouring out from me to my baby. Her encouragement made my job of being a Mom to a little person a little easier to see. And though sometimes it was still hard to see the impact I was making. Her encouraging words pushed me to keep going. To keep on loving and even though I may not be seeing it, the baby I was loving would.
And sometimes I would wonder why I made this sacrifice to stay at home. But when I think about that I remember that if I went to work each day I would get a paycheck that is financial. While choosing to stay home at with my boys will have a greater impact on their lives and the lives they touch in the future.
I only have to think about when one of them holds me tight when he is scared and giggles while we play. That is when I know that this was the best choice I could have ever made. It may be hard and people on the outside may not know how hard the daily struggles are, but it is the right choice for me.
So some days I feel small and insignificant, but it is amazing what the encouraging words from others can do. So if you see a Mom give her encouragement, even if it looks like she has it all together, it will mean the world to her. I know it did for me.