Growing into Mom

Ever since I saw the word this morning’s word for Tuesday at Ten (Grow) I have been thinking of how much I have grown through the first two years of motherhood.

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I thought I was prepared to be a mom and I guess in some ways I was. I had the diapers, clothes, crib and car seat ready. I had read books about what to expect while pregnant and after, how to get the baby to sleep, attachment parenting, cry it out and more. I was ready and thought it would be easy and effortless. I know there were signs that those two things were not the road of motherhood, but somehow my rose colored glasses could not see the truth until it hit me over the head with a baseball bat as I sat wondering why it was so hard and what I had done wrong.

I reached out to friends and recalled things other friends had shared in my pre-kid days and I realized I wasn’t alone. I wasn’t the only one who had struggles; I wasn’t the only one who felt like a failure.

So now as the newness of motherhood starts to wear off and I am beginning to find my footing and enjoying more moments. I look back the old me. The confident young woman who wasn’t really aware of what was coming and what was in store. And I see someone who has grown and changed.

I can’t really say what all the changes and growth are because I cannot remember the person who I was before, but I know I had to say goodbye to who I once was. My life is so different now and there is someone who needs me desperately and soon will be gone. So I have had to shift my focus away from always me.

He won’t be little forever and soon he will grow up and be gone. So I’m working on enjoying each moment I have.

Even when it is hard,

Even when it isn’t too much fun

Today will never happen again and I hope I can make the most of each day I’m given as a mom.

I’m linking up with Tuesday at Ten

Tuesday at 10: Finding the grace within

18 comments on “Growing into Mom

  1. Love your post; its so easy to get bogged down and forget that ‘today will never happen again’ (something I also mentioned in my post for Karen Beth’s prompt!)…..I always think that, actually, when one’s a parent, there are two people, not just one (the child) growing up – motherhood, as you say, converts us in to different people…..

  2. This is so beautiful. I think you said that you had read Surprised By Motherhood. It’s so good. We all feel like we are the only ones that have struggled with motherhood, but we’re not. You are growing into such a lovely wonderful young mom 🙂

    • Yes I have. I love how she talks about breaking up with yourself. I actually read it twice once so quick because I was so excited and a second time where I read a chapter a week as part of her book club. I learned so much slowing down. My favorite quote “Love is like hot chocolate, it warms you from the inside out”

    • I will, it is the fun part of my blog and soon I will run out of airman stories to tell and it will morph into something different. I will always be veteran and remember my military service, but each day motherhood will continue to grow and change my life. 🙂

  3. Beautiful, my friend! And just when we think we’ve got this motherhood thing down… it changes! 😉 But thank God for grace, and love, and wisdom and learning… growing… changing! You are doing great… and will continue to grow and change and shift into each new season of Motherhood – because, ask me how I know, even when they are grown and out of the house – they always come home

    • I already have learned that. things are always changing, which i guess that is why we are always growing. Thanks for the encouragement. Means a lot. And it is nice to know they still come home even when they are all grown up.

    • Thanks for the encouragement. I saw a quote something like if you want to do something nice for someones child encourage their mother. you guys are doing a great job of making me feel like a good mom.

  4. Beautiful! Being a mom isn’t easy; my post on “GROW” is similar – yet, in a different way! It talks about a mother’s love – of an adult “child” who has just delivered some bad news…we will ALWAYS be a mother; no matter how old our “child” is!

    Thanks for sharing your growth as a mother…

    • I will have to check it out. I was surprised last night when I posted that only two people had linked up so far and then my baby was sick all day so it was kind of unproductive, but relaxing.

  5. I cannot even imagine how being a mom has changed you…but I can tell it has changed you in good ways. Some day I hope to experience that motherhood change for myself. Thanks for sharing my friend!

    • It is definitely something you can’t really understand me until you go through it. I hope you get the chance to too. It is life changing.

  6. This: “I can’t really say what all the changes and growth are because I cannot remember the person who I was before, but I know I had to say goodbye to who I once was.”

    I often feel the same way when I try to remember who I once was – but it’s such a blurry picture. My husband and I talk about this a lot, too – how hard it is to remember us when we were dating or engaged, but not yet married. I’m thankful for the growth I’ve experienced, and for the things I can’t remember – so be it.

    • You are right you can relate this to many aspects of your life it just depends on what stage you are, but you are always growing and changing. I learned from my deployment you remember the good and forget the bad. It makes the past seem easier than it may have been.

  7. I love your words! I think all of us moms have that moment (ok…more like several moments) where we look back and go, “What was I thinking?” 🙂 I look at pictures before my kids and yes, I have trouble remembering those days anymore! Yet, if it weren’t for those days, we would have nothing to measure how far we have come. Love your story!

    • Thank you for your kind words. I love the way you put it, if we couldn’t look back we couldn’t see how far we have come. Perfect and so true!

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