Sometimes when I write for Five Minute Fridays I want to erase what comes out. The story I had in my mind to tell when I saw the word send was not what was written. Sharing an honest heart. Remember those who gave so much.
I’m reading Unbroken right now and it is very interesting, but also very hard to read. Reading the section where he was a Prisoner Of War (POW) made me desperate for the war to end so their suffering would end. I am still in shock that this book is people’s life stories and not fiction. It was so hard to read and often reminded me of the training I received before I was sent off to Afghanistan. As a female in a country where females were treated as second-class citizens, I was a little worried about how I would be treated.
My deployment had me deal with people who used the war situation to take advantage of others and although I was not physically abused there were people on my team who truly hurt me.
I sent letters home and like Louie, I always focused on the positive. Not wanting family and friends to worry about me, but there were hard days. People I trusted betrayed me and the hurt of the experience that happened overseas came home with me.
It took a lot of time for me to recover and some days I wonder if I just moved on without truly resolving some of the problems left behind. One time while walking across an empty field I was sure it was a minefield and started searching for all the signs to help me know it was safe. I decided it would be easier just to take the longer path of walking around the field instead of through it.
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Going to Afghanistan was an experience. There were many good days and things that happened that I am proud of and deep friendships that I would not give up for all the hurt caused by some people. But it was not easy and it is not something I would want to do again. Everyone who serves gives up something. For some, it is everything for some it is choices that they would have made.
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