Sent of to War

Sometime when I write for Five Minute Fridays I want to erase what comes out. The story I had in my mind to tell when I saw the word send was not what was written. Sharing an honest heart. Remember those who gave so much.

What is it like to be sent to war. I was a young 1st Lt who wasn't really sure of herself. I learned so much.

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I’m reading Unbroken right now and it is very interesting, but also very hard to read. Reading the section where he was a Prisoner Of War (POW) made me desperate for the war to end so their suffering would end. I am still in shock that this book is people’s life stories and not fiction. It was so hard to read and often reminded me of the training I received before I was sent off to Afghanistan. As a female in a country where females were treated as second-class citizens I was a little worried how I would be treated.

My deployment had me deal with people who used the war situation to take advantage of others and although I was not physically abused there were people on my team who truly hurt me.

I sent letters home and like Louie I always focused on the positive. Not wanting family and friends to worry about me, but there were hard days. People I trusted betrayed me and the hurt of the experience that happened overseas came home with me.

It took a lot of time for me to recover and some days I wonder if I just moved on without truly resolving some of the problems left behind. One time while walking across an empty field I was sure it was a mine field and started searching for all the signs to help me know it was safe. I decided it would be easier just to take the longer path of walking around the field instead of through it.

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Going to Afghanistan was an experience. There were many good days and things that happened that I am proud of and deep friendships that I would not give up for all the hurt caused by some people. But it was not easy and it is not something I would want to do again. Everyone who serves gives up something. For some it is everything for some it is choices that they would have made.

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14 comments on “Sent of to War

  1. Amanda, thank you for your service to this country. I can’t even imagine what it was like to be there. I saw the movie Unbroken recently with my Dad and Sis. We all thought it was pretty intense so I can’t imagine what those of you that went to war felt when reading the book or seeing the movie. Thanks for sharing your story even though im sure it can be hard to share.

  2. Thank you for making the sacrifices you did for our country. I haven’t seen nor read Unbroken yet, but it’s on my list. Even my pastor recommended reading Unbroken. I think I’m going to have to move it up the reading list.

    • It is an amazing story. It wasn’t anything like I expected and I still can’t believe some of the things that happened. It inspires me to keep sharing my story. If we don’t tell our story as time goes on it will get lost and no one will ever know. The dropping of the atomic bombs makes so much more sense now than they ever did.

  3. “Everyone who serves gives up something.” Oh how true this is Amanda! Thank you for your service to our country…and for the courage to go and to overcome the “abuse” or the hurt by those who were on your team. It may not have been physical abuse or hurt, but I am sure it hurt you deeply. You ARE brace and I admire you for doing what you felt you were called (or sent) to do!

    Thank you for sharing your story – and praying things ARE improving. I come from a military family from my father, to my brother and his wife, to my 1st husband, to my son – it is hard no matter if you are the soldier or the family member back home.

    Bless you and may He continue to guide you in whatever you do!

    • It is hard. Now I am out but my husband is in. He hasn’t had to deploy, but we still have to give up so much to be in the military. Away from our families and doing what the military tells us to do. We are truly blessed, but it still is hard.

  4. Thank you. Our neighbor’s son went and thanks be to God came back…but different. War is painful and takes a toll even on those who don’t bear physical scars.

  5. You are brave. You are beautiful. You are a good mom.
    Your photo on FMF caught my attention.
    My sister is wife to a military man. He has served two deployments, and I know his pain and honor are great.
    My prayers are with you as you continue to serve as mom and wife to support your husband in the service. It is a career few take on these days, and those that do are often shuffled and scorned. I commend you for your service and your willingness to share your stories of life and love. Keep counting the blessings and do not let doubt creep in…you’ve got a life journey that is just unique to God’s design. So great to “meet” you here. Have a peaceful weekend. Hoping your husband isn’t at “work!” Jenn

    • Jenn, thanks for stopping by and for poking around. I loved how your words were the perfect encouragement for me. Staying home sometimes is really hard and I try not to get lost in what I call the glory days when I used to be…to the world so much more. Thanks again!

  6. First of all, thank you for serving and sacrificing for our country! Second of all, know that in every work situation, there will be people on your team who will hurt you. The important thing is what we take away from the situation. Can we grow and learn because of it and become more compassionate in the future? Hopefully, the answer is yes. It’s not always easy to grow–but we become smaller and smaller if we remain stagnant!

    • I guess as i was reading Louie story I realized I never forgave and moved on. I just tried to block it out from my memory. I have been dealing with some tough issues last week and realizing how important it is to forgive was an important lesson. I truly didn’t think it could be done.

      I have had to work with people and have tough situations, but when you live with the people you work with it makes for an even more difficult situation. There was no escaping by going home because everywhere I went I would run into him. It was so hard and I’m so glad it is over, but I still need to go back and forgive and learn from the situation.

    • Thanks for reading. I think it is a healing part of the process. Not realizing how much I needed to do this until this week.

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