I’m grateful or at least I should be. Some days I find it so hard to be grateful for my current situation. I stay at home with my son and I am truly grateful I have the opportunity to do so, but some days I wish I could be the one out on the “adventure.”
My husband is traveling this week and being home with a 1 year old is fun, exhausting and irritating all at the same time. As my son struggled to find sleep tonight I prayed, more like pleaded with God to give me the strength to not lose my temper. Sadly, this has happened in the past. “I kept repeating, I need your strength and your love. Help me.” At the same time in my mind I was arguing with myself, so what if he did not go to sleep right away all I had planned for the night was to write. But the other half screamed at me! I need a break!
As these two sides fought in my mind I clung to God and his strength as I rocked and walked with a half-awake child. Somewhere in the minutes of my walking he fell right asleep and as I put him in his crib I hoped, he would stay asleep. And for some reason he did. Maybe God’s peace was given to me as I prayed and it transferred over to his little body as well. The restless feet stopped twitching, the eyes half cracked, but wide awake slowly closed and sleep finally came.
Today was a victory, but I did not do it on my own. Praying for more victories as I continue to grow in Him.
*Linking up with Finding the Grace Within as part of her Tuesday at Ten series. In KarenBeth’s own words, here is a brief desription of the exercise:
“Here is how it works:
Every Tuesday at 10am I post a prompt word/Photo, and you will have 1 week to write and link up on your blog, and then link up on the “Tuesday at Ten” site by using the “link up on my blog”.
Make sure you post the “Tuesday at Ten” logo (on the left) at the end of your writing so that others can link up and also join.
Creativity is the key! You can use photos, you can use anything that is unique in your own way to display the prompt word.
The prompt word stays up for 1 WEEK until the new Tuesday at Ten is posted!
The linkup closes Monday night in preparation for the new prompt word. I will choose two writers who had the best creative way of writing or showing of the “prompt word”on their blog, and they will be showcased on Tuesday at Ten blog, and Facebook page for that week.” (KarenBeth on her blog.)